Life sometimes gets in the way of my happiness.

I am generally a very happy person.  Now granted,  that is not to say I don't cry a lot, have a temper, and feel sorry for myself on occasion.  I am an emotional person and my feelings are not very easily hidden.  My feelings might have bubbled over a bit tonight.  It never ceases to amaze me that some people do not share my feelings on life.  Maybe that is why when someone intentially does something out of malice or greed it cuts me deeply.  Tonight I was faced with yet again another episode that rocked me.  I lost my temper, sent my children to the house, then ranted and raved to my poor poor husband.  He was up to this situation neck deep and didn't need to hear my ravings.  I finally realized this and zipped my lip.  After calming down I allowed my thoughts to dig into my Christian beliefs.  Does this really involve me?  Does this really in the large scheme of things deserve this reaction from me?  Does my poor husband need to deal with more?  And finally, don't I trust God to handle this situation?  I realized that yes, I was furious,  Yes, I deserved to be angry but my reaction was helping no one, and finally Yes, God would handle this situation.  Now, I have a great idea how God could handle this.  My way!  But alas, I have to admit,  He is so much smarter than I.  He will handle it His way and I may never even see it. I finally conceded, asked my husband to do the same and not let our anger consume us.  Anger is a horrible drug that is as addictive as heroine and eats away not your internal organs but your eternal soul.  I will try to let this anger go.  I want to continue to be happy and not let LIFE get in the way of my happiness because the older I get the more I realize that life can really stink sometimes. :) Tomorrow is a new day and I want to smile.